The Longest Day 2017

On June 21st, I’m participating in The Longest Day, an event to honor the strength, passion and endurance of those facing Alzheimer’s disease. From sunrise to sunset, my team will complete an activity of our choosing to raise awareness and funds for the care, support and research efforts of the Alzheimer’s Association.

Today, over 35 million people across the world are living with Alzheimer’s, including more than 5 million Americans. In the United States alone, more than 15 million caregivers generously dedicate themselves to those with Alzheimer’s and dementia. And these numbers will only continue to rise unless we take action.
This is the 3rd year I am participating in The Lonest Day. Raising money and awareness for Alzheimer’s is a cause very near and dear to my heart. As a CNA I see first hand the affects this disease has on the person and their family. It is truly heartbreaking. 

Together, we can show those facing Alzheimer’s disease they are not alone. If you’d like to make a donation to my team, join my team, or learn more please visit my team page. Any donation no matter how small or big makes a difference. To those who have already donated thank you!! Click here to donate
Let’s put an end to this tragic disease. 




Where Has The Time Gone?

It has been a hot minute since my last post. I have recently been re-inspired to write more, so I thought why not pretty up the blog  and get to writing. Last I left you I was really just starting to dip my toes in my nursing school program, and now I am fully submerged in exams, clinicals, care plans, and enough stress to last a year! For those of you that have gone through nursing school you know the dreaded ” your answer was correct but not the most correct”…As much as I may complain about the homework, lectures, and hours of studying  I really am loving what I’m learning, and I have made some great friends along the way.  I am however counting down the months till graduation! (6 to be exact!)

School has pretty much taken over all of my free time, but I have managed to squeeze in some fun with friends and family! I rang in 2017 with my close group of friends!img_6817 I then ventured off to visit my best friend Jess in Georgia( really I just went to meet her new puppy- sorry Jess ha). img_7145When Jess moved to Georgia 5 years ago I was so nervous about the future of our friendship. We went from spending so much time hanging out to being 725 miles away. However it has been such a joy to watch her build her family and life in Atlanta, and our friendship has only grown stronger. Who knows maybe someday ill end up living in Georgia too. Speaking of Jess check out her brand new blog The Peach Side of Life.

In my last post I wrote about meeting my 3 year remission mark. I am happy to be able to say that my last MRI was once again clean! My surgeon is so confident in my staying cancer and tumor free that I only have to have MRIs once a year. That was music to my ears. The check up MRIs are a very anxiety filled time so only having to deal with it once a year is a huge relief! I wake up feeling so blessed to be cancer and tumor free.

I hope this blog finds you all well! To all of you that have been reading my blog since the beginning thank you! And to those newcomers welcome! I am going to make a point to post more frequently so be sure to check back soon!



October 4th, 2016

Today marks 3 years that I have been cancer free. It still feels weird for me to say that sometimes, even though its been 3 years, because cancer was never something I thought I’d have to deal with. From the day that I was told I had cancer, until the day I finished radiation, I didn’t have time to grieve or process. I was too busy fighting this disease that was living in me, to focus on anything else. The first year after all of this happened was the hardest. I was grieving when I didn’t even know I was by my behavior, and the choices I was making. I think that there can kind of be this idea that ~okay you’re now cancer free time to move on and forget about the ordeal you just went through~  That is not healthy at all. I wish I had taken more time to process. No, I do not think I needed to wallow in what I happened, but I did fully need to process. By the time my 2 year remission came around I was at a much healthier place mentally, because I was busy with work, but I also allowed myself to openly talk about what I had gone through, because it was nothing to be ashamed of.

Unless you have yourself had cancer and experienced the fear, and turmoil it puts you though yourself, I feel its very hard to understand what someone with cancer or a survivor is dealing with. Which is totally understandable.I know not everyone understands why certain anniversaries can cause me to be quiet with my thoughts, or more somber. Its because i usually am reliving what happened that day in my head. While doing so can make me feel so thankful to be where I am today, it can also be a bit overwhelming.

Now at the 3 year mark I do feel as though I am at the best place when it comes to being at peace with what happened to me.  I look at where I am right now in my life, and how much having cancer, and surviving taught me.

I am much stronger, more humble, and more optimistic, then I was before. I have a group of friends that is so extremely supportive of me and make me laugh every time we hang out. I have a job that I enjoy, and am more passionate about finishing nursing school then I ever was before. Lastly my faith is now stronger then ever before because of what I went through. It is what makes me feel at ease in any tough situations I face.

So while it still can make me angry that I was dealt this cancer card, I feel blessed for the person it has made me. The survivor that it made me. I do not think I would be where I am  had I not had to fight for my life. I also am very grateful because I know that many people are not as lucky as I am, and lose their life to this horrible disease.

So thank you to my friends and family, that have been a constant support since all of this happened 3 years ago. Your love and prayers at the time, and still now, means so much to me.

I hope you have a beautiful fall day!



Time To Get Moving On

I’ve always been the type of person that loves everyone, and tries to find the good in people, even when others cannot. It is because of this that I have had a lot of people in my life for the wrong reasons. Either they were trying to replace someone in their own life with me, or just use me because they knew I would always be there when they needed me. It took me a while to realize how unhealthy this was for me. It was also somewhat painful because if eventually one of my “friends” didn’t need me anymore, didn’t need the constant advice and love, things would change a lot. I really came to realize that I was just a stand in until they fixed things with the person they were really missing.

Now this is not to say this has happened with all or a lot of my friends. That is not the case at all. I am very lucky to have a great group of supportive, adventurous, loving friends. This is just a select few that were literally sucking the life out of me. When it was happening, I was so consumed that I couldn’t even see it happening. Other people around me could though. I was warned many times but I wanted to believe that I was needed and that I wouldn’t be the one suffering in the end.

Well, today I woke up with this great feeling. I have been struggling with letting go of people or relationships for a while, but this morning I just had this overwhelming feeling that I was ready. And let me tell you it is the best, most freeing, and empowering feeling ever. I’m not sure if it is because I am about to start on this new journey with school, that I just realized I had been dragged through the mud enough, or that it was just time to let go.  Whatever it was I am thankful.

Moving forward with taking the next steps in my career I know that I don’t want any extra baggage or drama. Nothing that will hold me down or distract me. Which is why I am so glad that my head and heart are finally in agreement. You see letting go of something that once meant so much to you (or so you thought at the time) isn’t always a bad thing. (its not easy either) I for one know that I am not the same person I am now, as I was 4/5 years ago. Heck I am not even the same person I was 2 years ago. We grow, find our voices, and then we move on.

All I know is that I am SO excited for what my future holds, and I am ready to tackle life head on. I am so ready (and a little nervous) for this next adventure of finishing school and starting my dream job. I woke up this morning ready to fill my life with only: hope, faith, love, and adventure.

To my friends, and friends who have become my family, thank you for all your advice, love, support, and good times. I am so blessed to have you in my life. -You know who you are-



At some point you have to realize that some people can stay in your heart but not your life” –Unknown



What’s Newsy

In CNA school one of the first things you are told before starting clinicals is to try not to get too attached to the patients. That made sense to me at first because in reality we are working with the elderly….. Some very ill. Well that lesson flew out the window the first day I walked in the door of my clinicals. I knew right away I was just going to love my job. I have always had a soft spot in my heart for the elderly, and I had a lot of knowledge on Alzheimer’s and Dementia so I was very excited to start. 

It didn’t take me very long to build relationships and get to know the patients. From my very first CNA job to where I am now, I have always gotten attached. I think in doing so you build a stronger trust and bond that is so important. This year I met a very wonderful woman (103 years young!) that came to the nursing home I work, at in the summer. I knew right away she was special and that I would become “attached” to her. It is crazy in the 8ish months she was with me how much I learned from her, and what a great bond we had. It was a very special blessing to be with her in her final moments. It is because of her and my Grandpa that I have decided, after taking some time off, to go back to school in the summer and finish up my nursing degree. I have never been a huge fan of “going to school” but I am excited to get this degree under my belt and move forward in my nursing career. 

I also recently had my annual MRI check up. I always get to nervous and stressed before and after the scan. I hate the scan itself (so claustrophobic) and then waiting to hear the results is so nerve wrecking. Well my results are in and I guess you could say they are neither good nor bad. My doctor did see a small spot which could be nothing or something. Very vague at this point. Basically instead of only having to have the MRIs once a year, which is what I was hoping for, I have to go back in a few months to make sure that spot hasn’t grown, moved, changed, etc. Not the results I wanted to hear but also know that they could have been a lot worse. Hopefully it’s nothing and my scans continue to be clean! However any extra positive thoughts and prayers would be much appricated! 

I hope you all are doing well! Thank you for taking the time to stop by and read my blog!



It’s Fall Y’all!

It has been quite a while since I have posted! It seems like I always tell myself that I am going to sit down and write but then life gets so busy I forget! A lot has happened since my last post. We lost my Grandpa in June. Which was devastating for my whole family. My Grandpa was really the ray of sunshine in my family. He always had a way of making you laugh or smile, even in bad times. He had the biggest heart and gave the best advice. He taught me how to ride a bike, supported me at every volleyball game, dance recital and theatre performance. He was my biggest fan and lives on in my heart.

Speaking of my Grandpa, shortly after he passed away I decided to move in with my Grandma (and her dog Molly..) I loved my condo and the independence that came with it, but after being here for about 4 months I know it was a smart and good decision. See, I’m lucky in the fact that my Grandma is truly one of my best friends. I know that later in life I will truly treasure the time that we got to spend living in the same house.

Something really fun and exciting that I just recently got to do was “General Hospital Fantasy Weekend”!! ( yes I am a huge GH fan. Don’t make fun) The event was in Rosemont and I got to meet five of the stars, including Finola Hughes( the one and only Anna Devane!) it was so cool and such a fun once in a lifetime experience. Now if we can just get someone to tell Jake that he is really Jason all of us GHers would be so happy! HaHa.


I took a trip to Minnesota just weekend to visit my seester and brother-in-law. They were having their annual “Wurst Party” and it was so much fun! It was a very short but sweet trip. I always love spending time with them. I love chilly Minnesota and I finally got to see their house!


My work life is also great. I have spoken many times about how much I love my job and being a CNA, but this month I was awarded with Employee of the Month” which truly meant so much to me, and is a great honor. Not to mention I get my own parking spot! I really am lucky to work with some great people, and I do have a lot of fun.

I really think half way through year 25 is when I really woke up from the nightmare I had been living in since my cancer diagnosis and surgery (at 23). It truly was like one day I woke up, decided life was far too short, and started living for me. I reclaimed my independence, and discovered my place in this crazy journey that life is. I found pure happiness and now I try to approach every situation with a positive attitude, and smile and laugh as much as possible. I am so different then the person I was a year ago, but in the best way possible. I was able to discover the best version of myself. I am really confident that 26 is going to be a great year.

I think my advice to anyone who may have been experiencing what I was-stuck in that dark rabbit hole- would be to hang on. One day you will wake up to the sun shining again. It does take hard work though. You have to want it and you have to fight for it. And once you find that joy you fight like hell to keep it. I don’t believe that happiness is a final destination but a continual work in progress. We have to work hard to keep everything we love right? So work hard to keep the joy and happiness in your heart.



The Longest Day

Hello all! Its been quite some time since I have posted on here! Work, school, and family have been keeping me busy 🙂 I just wanted to write a quick post about a fundraising cause close to my heart that I am taking part in. I will post the information with the link below!

On June 21, I’m participating in The Longest Day, an event to honor the strength, passion and endurance of those facing Alzheimer’s disease. From sunrise to sunset, my team will complete an activity of our choosing to raise awareness and funds for the care, support and research efforts of the Alzheimer’s Association.

Today, over 35 million people across the world are living with Alzheimer’s, including more than 5 million Americans. In the United States alone, more than 15 million caregivers generously dedicate themselves to those with Alzheimer’s and dementia. And these numbers will only continue to rise unless we take action.

Together, we can show those facing Alzheimer’s disease they are not alone. Please make a donation to help the Alzheimer’s Association advance research and provide care and support to those facing the disease today.

As many of you know I have been working with Alzheimer’s patients for a few years now as a CNA. I absolutely love my job, and this cause. Any little bit you can donate will go a long way. Even if you cannot donate spread the word! There are only 12 days left till “The Longest Day”! Thanks for taking the time to read this! Click on the link labeled “The Longest Day” below!

The Longest Day