Its been a while since I have posted, and when someone at my church today suggested I do, I figured it would be a good idea. Writing has always been a very therapeutic thing for me and there has been a lot that has been happening as of late. My uncle passed away in October, which was devastating for myself and my family. My Uncle Bill was like a father to me. He and I were best buddies. He lived in Las Vegas so I did not get to see him often, but whenever he was in town we spent everyday together.
The first month anniversary after his death was surreal. To this day it still doesn’t seem as though he’s gone, but I do find peace in the fact that he is in paradise with God. I also feel so grateful that when I was going through surgery and my recovery, he was here for 10 days. Those were the last 10 days I saw him in person and I will cherish them for the rest of my life.
This weekend marks the 6 month anniversary of the day I was diagnosed with a brain tumor, and the day after when I had surgery. Every other anniversary hasn’t seemed as big as this one for me. I just keep thinking ‘woah…. 6 months is half a year…’ it seems crazy to me especially because I am still getting some of my memories back from those few days. So it has been a difficult weekend.
I do not want to come off as ungrateful to be alive, or to be doing as well as I am physically after only 6 months. I thank God every day for my life, and I know that on July 18th he said ‘I have a great plan for Chrissie, she will be a survivor, not a victim.’
Anniversaries are funny things. We celebrate wedding anniversaries, first date anniversaries, the anniversary of how long you have owned a home, the anniversary of when we have lost a loved one…….So what do you do for the anniversary of being alive? I cant answer that, so I bring that question to God and I know that he will eventually come back to me with an answer.
I want to end this post with this… a song by Hillsong United that has brought me great comfort.
“Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)”
You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand
And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine
Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You’ve never failed and You won’t start now
So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
I will call upon Your Name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine